August 24, 2015
It’s 4:00 a.m. I should be sleeping. Instead I’m worrying.
We have 12 days left in our crowdfunding campaign. 12 days. And $36,430 to raise in those 12 days.
I’m not worried for the reasons everyone else is worried about for me. “What will you do if Driven doesn’t get funded?” “Have you applied for jobs?” “That’s a lot of money.”
Mostly though, I’m worried because I know how important Driven’s content is and failing to create it is unfathomable.
I’m one of 157 million American women. I’m one of 3.5 billion women in the world.
But, like many of those women, sometimes I feel like I’m alone.
I’m not soft. I make myself feel better by making other people feel better rather than letting others in. I’m not particularly maternal or romantic. All the things the media keeps telling me are the mark of a sweet, good woman.
But at the same time, I’m not good at being steel. I hesitate. I apologize. Both are things that the media keeps telling me aren’t the mark of a strong, powerful woman.
It sometimes seems impossible to raise the money we need. And I worry I did something wrong. I was too polite. I didn’t make strong enough calls to action. I didn’t want to offend or hurt or ask too much of anyone. If I were a stronger woman, would we be funded by now?
I worry that I’ve let down hundreds, or thousands, or millions of women.
And the irony of it all is that I know–right now–many other women are dealing with these questions and feelings in their own lives.
So, in the last 12 days, I’m trying to be open about what I’m feeling and who I am. I’m trying to be firmer, stronger and more powerful. I think that starts with honesty.
When you’re selling your startup, you’re really selling yourself. You’re saying, “This is me. This is what I do. I’m exceptionally good at it. Give me your money.”
“What if who I am isn’t good enough? What if I’m the problem?” That horrible voice in the back of my head asks.
But Driven isn’t about playing it safe and listening to that voice.
It’s about saying, “This is me. I don’t always know who I am. But I know that I believe in this. And I know that women want it. And maybe together, we’ll all get some clarity on who we are.”
Right now, it’s open and unabashed call for help.
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